And so the story continues

So how's y'all this morning...how i have missed y'all here..its been a yl, what with work and family, well i'm back now so our story continues

......After i heard that he'd popped the big question and was halfway down the aisle, i told myself that twas time to switch gears....we'd just enjoy eachothers company while we still cud and i secretly promised myself to move on in a couple of months when we'd have to change locations. Everyone was happy or so we allowed ourselves to believe and then it happened!!!

I was at home one night watching sumn on tv (two and half men,lol) yl chatting with him and he drops the bombshell.....he's ended things with her, called off the engagement..they were done!!! I honestly tot he was joking, maybe twas another of those fights pple have when in a relationship, but he was serious. Said he didnt want to continue when he knew he had met and fallen in love with someone else(me). Ok!!!!!! so i was confused, happy, scared, pinching myself all at once to make sure it wasnt a dream, first i tot he was just pranking me, but after a idashed to d calendar and back i confirmed it wasnt April fool's day, i also confirmed he didnt haave some kind of tumour growing in his brain cos he sounded very coherent, but he was very very serious. Jeeeeeezzzz i had never heard him this serious, he sounded like his whole world was crashing and he didnt care cos he had just made the best decision ever. He said he was ready to risk it all, move on, forget the years with her and start up, fresh with me....said he knew twas a risk he was taking, he was going to be a big fool if i said no to him cos he wud have ended what he had for nothing and no matter what he cudnt go back. He asked if i was down or not...was i ready for a relationship with him or not...

My heart skippd a beat, no infact it froze, twas like i stepped out of my own body and was watching a replay of everything i had ever heard or known about them both since i met him, they were like bonnie and clyde, everyone knew them, they lived togeda, she'd just spent the last holiday in their family house, they'd just gotten an apartment togeda, everyone knew them....twas going to mean me stepping into realy large shoes, taking in a lot of hatred and rejection from their loyalist friends, I'd be the new girl that their mutual friends wud love to hate and eagerly wait to see me mess up, I'd be agreeing to be the girl that wud always be thinking if i'm meeting up to the standards his ex left and even keep hearing stories about how they used to do this and that togeda>>>>all that these flashed through my head and as my mind reconnected to my body i knew i had to make a decision...it was the first day of the month, it could be a new start, beginning of something endless n beautiful.....it was decision making time.....and I said YES!!!

Everything is a title...as it comes to my head and heart, i pour it out onto the keyboards...: So how was ur day..mine was crazyz!!! had a millio...

Everything is a title...as it comes to my head and heart, i pour it out onto the keyboards...: So how was ur day..mine was crazyz!!! had a millio...: So how was ur day..mine was crazyz!!! had a million things to do, was hoing to have a slow morning, guess twasnt one of those days. Well twa...

So how was ur day..mine was crazyz!!! had a million things to do, was hoing to have a slow morning, guess twasnt one of those days. Well twas good all the same considering i woke up angry for no reason @ all today...had to play me some gospel songs to chaswe d dreary feelings away.
....so back to our gist; Dude and i started our romance, we hung out after work some nights, talked about everything and anything, u know those kinda mindless talks u have with a really good friend. I figured he was having issues in his "relationship" that's y he needed an outlet and since i'd had first hand experience of being in that sorta situation i was glad to be a good friend/diversion tho all the yl i kept my guard up no point getting em feelings mixed up.
  We started getting deeper, talked more about us and less random stuff, what we wanted to be in a couple of years, how we wanted our families to be like, how our spouses wud react to different sceanerios(we'd started crossing the line tho i didnt know then)...i enjoyed listening to him speak, twas captivating he had so many good plans in his small head i wud always say,lols...i told myself his gf was really lucky to have a determined young man like him not 'em rubbish chewing-gum chewing, carrot pants wearing, pant sagging, girls ogling, dreams chasing boiz around.
  Months rolled by, I liked him more, i knew he liked me more too,we'd changed gears and all the while i cud see a gazillion more red flags going up. So this day came after all the new year fetes, was chilling with some of our mutual friends when some guy mentioned that Dude got engaged over the christmas hols..mehn i was like WHAT!!!!!!, we used to chat every single day, we talked on he phone almost every other day, so how then did it slip by him to tell me he'd pooped the big question. It hurt me, tot i'd at least been a good friend enough to know when that sorta big occassion went down, worse part was every one was thinking i knew too. I let it go, but looking back now its kinda funny how he never even mentioned it after he returned from the trip and i never asked... 
Gat to go fix dinner, I'll be right back!!
 
 
 

So i'm supposed o be sleeping now and preparing myself for a really long monday at work tomorrow but here i am pondering over things i shudnt be. Ok so i just got outta this relationship. mehn was it fun or what . u know the kind where u meet the guy for the first time and u just hate him, nothing he does makes sense to u, u prolly even figure him out to be one dumb ass, razz fellow or sumn...well twas different, the first day he spoke to me i actually started to like him...ok infact i tripped...the nigga got sweet diction(p.s:i'm a sucker for guys with good diction)>>>back to the talk on ground<<<<ehen as i was saying..i tripped then it started. u know how things go with bbm someimes i wonder how our present generation would have gotten the hang of dating if there wasnt bbm. ok so we talked/chatted plenty over a short while and i started to like him more but as a friend tho..found out he was in a "relationship" well so it was perfect u'd say right,!!! everyone knows what each other wants. Thats the biggest mistake we all make nowadays when u assume u both got it all figured out and nothing can go wrong well in my case a whole lot of shit when wrong......

My eyes are droping continue tomorrow, if i can steal time yl @ work..nyt nyt

Everything is a title...as it comes to my head and heart, i pour it out onto the keyboards...: Fresh

Everything is a title...as it comes to my head and heart, i pour it out onto the keyboards...: Fresh: FRESH... thats how it feels now..u wake up one morning and its all a wrap. Mehn really dating sucks, dyu realise how sweet and pleasant ev...

Fresh

FRESH...
thats how it feels now..u wake up one morning and its all a wrap. Mehn really dating sucks, dyu realise how sweet and pleasant everything looks when ur seeing some1 steady and u've turned into a spiritualist/visionier/prophet/soothsayer and start seeing all the future there isnt to see then BAM!!!!!!!!....it hits u like a rude shock. well ife goes on.
Well my blogs wont be all so sorrowry(get ready to be seeing more crazy grammer).
Let's get it started.....